I don't like this weird feeling. It had better be a figment of my imagination. I know there was nothing said, but..but..
Sneak :P
What was said mostly I know, anyway..
Stupid "but"
*tendang*
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Since entering Uni, I don't seem to keep in touch with a lot of people anymore =/ At first it amounted to the insane workload, it was understandable. But slowly it turned into a habit. I shut off MSN, Skype and the lot but don't bother to turn them back on.
Ah bugger. No one wants to talk to me anymoreeeeeeeee. Also I'm turning back into the recluse pre-Zhi era. How leh?
Work ah work ah.
Sometimes this course feels like death. 2 more studying semesters. That is it. End of it all. Then comes internship and I'll be...
Somewhere.
IFTP, Creative Writing, PR2 and Media Law make a pretty lethal combination sigh. Emoooooo.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
The fear of not being good enough
4 weeks into the semester and I'm still left reeling from the blow. This sem is tough in the sense of expectations. Lecturers outline expectations every class and repeatedly tell us how to score. Add that to daily brain squeezes for ideas on what and how to do my assignments.
I don't know. And that's where the doubts set in.
Should I have taken a course with exams? No, is always the answer and I know I'll hate it if I did take that direction.To me, exams are just how well your memory works. Done and dusted with my diploma, which sometimes I look back and wonder if I do deserve it.
No, learning is much more than exams. Which is why I chose this course.
They say be careful of what you wish for. I got more than I bargained for. This is not a complaint, it's more frustration mixed with pressure and overall leaves me feeling empty. Some days I'll go "Oooooh I hate this course!!!666" but some days I love it. I love the challenge of taking something on.
I just finished reading the sample pieces of Creative Writing that my lecturer posted up. Beautifully articulated, I suppose that is more or less the standard expected for a HD. *bangs head* No, I'm not that good, but I don't want to be just average either.
My opinion piece still needs some weeding through, sigh. It's due on Thursday. 3 media releases are due on Friday. Some storyboard frames and script are due Friday. I really, really need to get my head back on track. I guess my heart's just not that in it this sem. Please come back soooooon.
Pressure ohhhh the pressure. Some days I want to hide under blankets and hide away from the world. But that won't help much, will it. Only temporarily.. More than often I find myself staring into space wondering what to do and how to do. I really really need to kick into gear. I cannot run away anymore. If I have to work late nights again, so be it.
End of this week: hand up a satisfactory Opinion Piece, 3 media releases and IFTP work.
Weeps. Don't get me started on law.
I don't know. And that's where the doubts set in.
Should I have taken a course with exams? No, is always the answer and I know I'll hate it if I did take that direction.To me, exams are just how well your memory works. Done and dusted with my diploma, which sometimes I look back and wonder if I do deserve it.
No, learning is much more than exams. Which is why I chose this course.
They say be careful of what you wish for. I got more than I bargained for. This is not a complaint, it's more frustration mixed with pressure and overall leaves me feeling empty. Some days I'll go "Oooooh I hate this course!!!666" but some days I love it. I love the challenge of taking something on.
I just finished reading the sample pieces of Creative Writing that my lecturer posted up. Beautifully articulated, I suppose that is more or less the standard expected for a HD. *bangs head* No, I'm not that good, but I don't want to be just average either.
My opinion piece still needs some weeding through, sigh. It's due on Thursday. 3 media releases are due on Friday. Some storyboard frames and script are due Friday. I really, really need to get my head back on track. I guess my heart's just not that in it this sem. Please come back soooooon.
Pressure ohhhh the pressure. Some days I want to hide under blankets and hide away from the world. But that won't help much, will it. Only temporarily.. More than often I find myself staring into space wondering what to do and how to do. I really really need to kick into gear. I cannot run away anymore. If I have to work late nights again, so be it.
End of this week: hand up a satisfactory Opinion Piece, 3 media releases and IFTP work.
Weeps. Don't get me started on law.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Do you believe in magic?
Here we go again:
- Media Law Presentations (15%) - 15th August onwards
- CWFM Opinion Piece (20%) - 25th August 2011
- PR2 Media Writing (20%) - 26th August 2011
- Raya Break (29th Aug - 4 Sept)
- IFTP Script and TV Production (15%) - 9th September 2011
- Media Law Question Solving (35%) - 26th September 2011
- CWFM Obituary/Profile (30%) - 26 September 2011
- IFTP Flash Animatic (35%) - 7th October 2011
- PR2 Report (35%) - 14th October 2011
- Deepavali Break (24th Oct - 30th Oct)
- CWFM Feature Story (50%) - 7th November 2011
- IFTP Final Video Production (50%) - 11th November 2011
- PR2 Portfolio (45%) - 11th November 2011
- Media Law Exam (50%) - 14th November 2011
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Bzzt
Dumbest thing: I signed into my blog account using the wrong gmail address. My heart stopped for awhile when I saw "You do not have a blog yet. Click here to create one!" Shit haha.
IneedsleepT__T.
Anyway.
Clicking on the Gizmodo link about Blackberrys reminded me about what we used to talk about day and night and practically every time I kecoh-ed you online (before food now om nom nom).
Gadgets.
It has dwindled to some time or another such as maybe, during HTC's latest release. But I remember (now) that I lived, breathed and drooled over every single picture I could google of my current phone now hehe. Andddd also debated to the other end of the earth and back again about it.
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I suppose, to a certain extent, that it is normal to take on the other's person interest or at least to be aware of it.
For example, now I am very aware of all the car brands on the road haha T_T. I was never bothered before. My knowledge and identification has broadened considerably, much thanks to listening to Chun Tat and Boon Yen's conversations (hehe).
Also, I guess, you'd want to know more about to find out why said person's so interested in it. Which was why on Monday when the bunch of us were hanging around Popular to pass our ridiculous 5 hour break and I simply had to find a place to sit. So happened that the only place available was covered by a car magazine.
I picked it up, sat down and flipped through it to look at pictures. Adam passed by and laughed when he saw what I held in my hands. "That is so unlike you!"
:)
It is to that point of a person's obsession that a glance or a few notes can identify the person's item of interest. Pig can glance at a vehicle a fraction of second and the name tumbles out. *blink blink*
Like when I dragged him towards Speedy Video with a huge grin to get a better earful of a melody that my ears picked up. A few seconds later he got it, hahaha. Beast oh Beast, and he gave me a "you ah" face.
Few days ago, he told me he was listening to Kpop and I was pleasantly surprised that he chose it over his usual variety. So I wasn't the only one to take an interest out of my bubble.
The thing is, we don't force each other into our respective interests. The way he talks about it; the animation in his gestures and tone of voice indicates. The want to find out more is there :)
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Another night, another 2am. I still have no idea how I am to get to Jing's tomorrow :P
Uni Week 1 has passed, and even though I mentally prepared myself I am still overwhelmed by the workload. It eez all possible nyah, that will be another post for another day.
Good night/morning all :D
IneedsleepT__T.
Anyway.
Clicking on the Gizmodo link about Blackberrys reminded me about what we used to talk about day and night and practically every time I kecoh-ed you online (before food now om nom nom).
Gadgets.
It has dwindled to some time or another such as maybe, during HTC's latest release. But I remember (now) that I lived, breathed and drooled over every single picture I could google of my current phone now hehe. Andddd also debated to the other end of the earth and back again about it.
---
I suppose, to a certain extent, that it is normal to take on the other's person interest or at least to be aware of it.
For example, now I am very aware of all the car brands on the road haha T_T. I was never bothered before. My knowledge and identification has broadened considerably, much thanks to listening to Chun Tat and Boon Yen's conversations (hehe).
Also, I guess, you'd want to know more about to find out why said person's so interested in it. Which was why on Monday when the bunch of us were hanging around Popular to pass our ridiculous 5 hour break and I simply had to find a place to sit. So happened that the only place available was covered by a car magazine.
I picked it up, sat down and flipped through it to look at pictures. Adam passed by and laughed when he saw what I held in my hands. "That is so unlike you!"
:)
It is to that point of a person's obsession that a glance or a few notes can identify the person's item of interest. Pig can glance at a vehicle a fraction of second and the name tumbles out. *blink blink*
Like when I dragged him towards Speedy Video with a huge grin to get a better earful of a melody that my ears picked up. A few seconds later he got it, hahaha. Beast oh Beast, and he gave me a "you ah" face.
Few days ago, he told me he was listening to Kpop and I was pleasantly surprised that he chose it over his usual variety. So I wasn't the only one to take an interest out of my bubble.
The thing is, we don't force each other into our respective interests. The way he talks about it; the animation in his gestures and tone of voice indicates. The want to find out more is there :)
---
Another night, another 2am. I still have no idea how I am to get to Jing's tomorrow :P
Uni Week 1 has passed, and even though I mentally prepared myself I am still overwhelmed by the workload. It eez all possible nyah, that will be another post for another day.
Good night/morning all :D
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Mr. Simple
Okay.
I was initially horrified when their album pictures surfaced.
Go ahead, cringe.
Although SJ-M should have given me an inkling of how their theme was going to be like i.e. Russian Circus. Honestly did not expect more of the clownishness. More so when Mr. Simple was released. Kind souls translated the lyrics and I could only stare in disbelief.
Whaaaaaat...
Prejudiced yes, it wholly reminded me of an Indian jingling tune and it got stuck into my head, fast. No doubt designed to do just that, I was bit disappointed and complained to pig at length that night (hahaha I'm sorry :P).
The first two songs of the album turned me off further, but I continued clicking play on the links allkpop provided. Something of the old them had to be there despite calling this album an effort of their unique colours righttttt :(
Luckily the album's tempo slowed down after the first two songs. I loved 'Y'. I love 'Y'. I love 'Y'. I think you get the point.
Fresh off the Korean servers, the MV was released. Then I was reminded of how their choreography is the thing that makes Super Junior, Super Junior.
Perhaps seeing YeSung, Ryeowook and Kyuhyun softened my prejudices. Ahh first loves... Choreography is what makes them and it did not disappoint. Glad to say that even machines can't level out Ryeowook's voice. In the crowd of 10, he instantly stands out.
Choreography better off this time, the lead single takes some listens to get used to. It's bothersome after awhile. The eyes have to have a share of the pounding beats to make it pleasant.
Yalah Mr. Simple, kenapa nak naughty naughty huh?? The choreography saved you. YAY Super Junior is backkk but your outfits are so darn horrific that BEAST stays my wallpaper.
Amen.
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