...

There is such a thing as being too nice lor.

The more you say "sorry" to me, you might as well perform 'Sorry, Sorry'. But to hear, "You have a big heart rightttt, sure can forgive me wan...."

Wtf you do me wrong and expect me to forgive you.
Up yours, buddy.

Never again.

Some people do not deserve to be nice to.

Dance, definitely dance

Oh yessssssss lah.
Korean month just stepped on the accelerator pedal :D

Going through "Their Rooms" and "Mission" is enough to get me dancing if it wasn't 1.34am. Dance, definitely some dance beats and ballads that DBSK/TVXQ was famous for.

"Mission" was more pleasurable to listen to than "Keep Your Head Down".

It's going to be another late night heee.

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And here I was, thinking I would be camping at home on my day off. Haha. Absolutely not. Without me knowing, tomorrow's plans sort of fell into place :D

Places to go, people to see, stuff to inquire.
Chop chop!

Fight or flight

Unfortunately, these are one of the moments in life I wish I could yell "STOP!" and it will.

Ha...ha...ha...

This cannot be happening no, no, no, no...

No more disappointments.
Something I cannot afford to happen.
Shit.
No ahhhhhh.
Don't laaaa.
Ish.

Guest star

I never really liked being in noisy places for too long. Working 12 hours in one spot gets stressful and I started the day in a funk. Not againnnnn ran through my head.

But then, I ran into you this morning. You were never one for much conversation; I didn't feel obliged to do so. It was easy to be in your presence, I could listen and chill at the same time. Some things that tumble out of your mouth are unexpected and most of the time you make me laugh.

That was just what I needed. To stop taking life and work so seriously. So easygoing you were that we had another cup of coffee, making me slightly late for work hahaha.

You might never read this, but, thank you :)

Do what makes you happy

Nowa yongwonhi hagirul somanghe
jogon obshi norul nomu saranghe
sesang modun hengboggwa
bigyohal su obso nomankhumun jolde anya

Pure, pure vocals. Why you did you ever break up? :(

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Some things you'll never get, some things I'll never understand. Whether I'm the one going too fast or you're the one taking your own sweet time.

Meh.

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20 days on the edge. Walao.
Roughly 10 long more days.
Here we go...

The look of love

Even the best of intentions backfire sometimes. You meant well, I know..

I wonder if I should try harder or let this go. It has been a long time; I'm not sure whether it's both sides to blame. I'm starting to dislike coming in last or as a last resort. Should I continue to be bothered? My loyalty says I should, but eating away at me on the inside. Don't you care?

Today today today I made a personal record of RM800 in sales :) Happyyyy. I skipped into the shop, plonked the bag down on the counter and announced that I had good sales today.

She told me that my version of sales wasn't good enough.
"RM800 wor..."

She raised her eyebrows in surprise hahahaha.

Was elated when I got onto the bus, I suppose some of the adrenaline has worn off. Home, shower, I feel myself winding down and the tiredness sets in. PMS has set in these past few weeks, leaving me tireder than usual.

Will need a lot of patience tomorrow, will pray for some tonight.

I'm starting to like my job, I really do.
But anything in excess is poisonous.
Life as we know it.
Even if I have sever some ties.

Rising sun

It's true that is always darkest before dawn; where it's coldest and insecurities haunt you.

I had one of those yesterday morning. Around 5am I awoke, pitch black, feeling cold and feverish with dark thoughts. As much as I tried to banish them, they kept coming. Having my comforter up to my chin wasn't helping much. After about an hour of tossing and turning, sleep finally took over.

I opened my eyes a few minutes before my alarm rang. It was light. At that moment it was really a relief to see daylight. The sun breaking through the clouds. Oh, the warmth...

Was feeling pretty grateful; I had lived to see another day.

This year I have two sems (haha..ha..) I know it will be really taxing on the soul, if I were too work on weekends too. So, NYR #3: Have a positive outlook on life. I enjoy challenges, since the first sem I realised I can push my limits so much farther.

Uni assignments will be brutal, I plan to take up on a few more clubs, there are a few areas I would like to improve upon myself :) Work, oh work. Tiring as it may be, I know I will be much happier working myself tired to the bone, making a difference in my life and possibly others'. I will be self-satisfied than to sit idly for too long.

Tomorrow begins a new week. New tricky customers, learning the craft of shop-handling, haha, new friends to make :)

Though I miss my girlfriends, my park kakis, my MG... sometimes a people detox is a good for the soul. It helps you differentiate behaviours. Plus, it helps me find myself :) Loving myself again was difficult, but I'm getting there.

Hello Sunday :)

But still so many people I want to catch up with :( Yargh. So many people, so little time.

*kicks sidewalk savagely*

I need a new MP3 player roarrrr. That, or a new phone first?
How?
What brand?
How much?
Expendable memory?
Screen large+vibrant enough for videos?
Exceptional sound quality?
Controls?
Durability?
Ease of use? Currently dislike transfer programs so much..
At the rate technology is developing, how long would I be able to use it for?

FTS lah. I wouldn't want to be in my own head now.

Picky. Hungry. Me.

Neoreul mannan chut sungan

Slowly spreading the love ;)

Yesterday my bro asked for some new songs, so I tossed in two decades' worth, in a few languages :D He can sing along to some parts of Bonamana now. I am so proud :')

Hahahahaha.

Also played DBSK and SuJu in the shop, Boss E doesn't seem to mind :P Only the noisy songs she lowers the volume a little haha. Awesome (Y).

Ladies and Gentlemen, the SHINee meteor has landed :D It has only been 31 days. Sheer shiny power :P

Heartquake

You so gorgeous, you caused a heartquake :D

Your voice is definitely my favourite sound, wheeeeee.

4 Minutes

As predicted, working with the Snake King is entertaining hahah :D We both learnt new stuff today too.

Sometime earlier today, BY knew he had to replace the receipt and credit card machine paper roll. What he didn't predict that it ran out faster than he thought. Some customers went without receipts while we figured out how to change the roll, hahahaha. 

First of all, we had to lift up the top part to change the roll and thread the paper through it. But couldn't find out how to lift it. He finally phoned Boss E when I figured out how to open it lol. Had a heck of a time threading the paper through. Old, old machine.

For the credit card machine, it ran out while printing a slip halfway. We both stunned awhile. "How now?" I asked him. "Void ah?"

He grew quiet. "I don't know how to void credit card.."

*cricket chirp*

I started jabbing at the machine, experimenting. Suddenly remembering Kah Wai telling me the password to do settlement. Jab, jab, jab. Purchase void.

Yay!

He also showed me what's what and what goes where on the machine. So many suppliers @@ Aiyaya. Roughly figured out the store now :) 

BY brought along a CD of songs that he burned and popped it in the player. Business slowed down noticeably and Boss E messaged us both at the same time. "How's business?"

I said okay. BY said bad. 

He got a reply mentioning customer service :P A few minutes later, "Oh, play music too." Haha! Debated on whether business would pick up. He reluctantly removed his CD and played the CNY songs one. Immediately, really immediately, a customer picked up a lot of items and ran a bill of hundreds!

Hahahahahahahahahahaaa!!! 

Boss E again messaged to ask whether I could work until 10pm. She said she would be back late, so I decided to stay on. BY cheered and immediately switched back to his CD, HAHAHA. 

Wasn't a bad night after that :) 

A korean couple walked into the store, too. We were quite fascinated :P

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Looks like I won't be seeing much sunlight for the next three weeks. The cloudy weather ain't helping much either. I wake up each morning shivering. Tonight was a first when I couldn't stop shivering when I got out of the shower earlier. Cold aaaaaaaah. I guess my body can't handle anymore cold.

Hot water tomorrow morning! (Yea I've been showering in cold water.)

Bed time while some new songs :) They're magical heehee.

Baa baa black sheep

Official results were released today. I did okay, what I expected them to be.

Late nights, head-crackings and plain, pure frustration, those times I admit I handed in not-so-excellent work.

So, new year resolution #2: Do my assignments with the best of my abilities. Plan in advance. I now know that they outline the entire sem and its nightmare-inducing assignments during the first week. Do more research. Make more use of my planner hee.

Pull up that 5.25!!

I can I can I can I can I can I can I can I can I can I can I can I can I can I can I can I can I can I can I can :D

Ready or not?

Always mean to blog/start on personal projects but something comes up.

Argh.

At this rate, Friday lah. Nao sleepy until can dai.

TTFN.

Words fail me

8th month. It just gets better and better (:

So good that it's bordering on obsession. I'm addicted. Yummy... Strangely it has never hit me this hard before :D

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Ended my first day of the new year with a healthy figure in my bank account. I is happy :) Definitely doing better than last year, and I intend to keep it that way.

Resolutions will come in time, once I've made up my mind.

Last week was tiring but good :) Listening to music and watching people of all shapes and sizes brought a few interesting ideas to mind. Research, then will see whether I can bring them alive. Haha, I was really excited that time :D

Treated the family to Baskin Robbins ice cream and fries at McDonalds :) Didn't see much of them during the past week. Plus it feels damn awesome to give back to my parents, even if it is a little bit.

Nothing, nothing is better than spending your hard-earned money.