#Capricorn

A #Capricorn may be shy and reserved at first but once comfortable all bets are off.
No doubt :P

#Capricorn doesn't follow trends, we do our own thing.
Oh yes.

#Capricorns are usually very accepting of others & will try to give you the benefit of the doubt until proven otherwise.
I try lah.

#Capricorn give yourself a little leeway & stop worrying.
#Capricorn give yourself a little leeway & stop worrying. 
#Capricorn give yourself a little leeway & stop worrying. 

#Capricorn hates being controlled & will run for the nearest exit if you smother us.
Run for the hills and never look baaaaaaaack.

It may take a #Capricorn forever to make up our mind, but once its made up it's final & there will be no back tracking.
Dahahaha

#Capricorns are normally extremely quiet & shy unless comfortable around you.
Then I say the weirdest things. Wait ah.

A wounded #Capricorn's words will cut you like a knife.
Sometimes I think I rather let the knife do the talking.

#Capricorn will never be comfortable in second place!
Ego aaaahhhh.

#Capricorn doesn't live in fantasy land.
We haz no Avatar.

#Capricorn believes what we see not what we hear.
Can't run the world on hearsay tralalala.

#Capricorn is a very complex sign & will take time & patience to understand.
Think you can wait?

#Capricorns are not the type of people who can let go fully until we understand our surroundings. 
Control freaks ma.

#Capricorn often prefers our own company over others.
I like to hear myself think.

#Capricorns are very insensitive to people who don't try to help themselves.
Only to kick your arses.

#Capricorn hates dishonesty in all forms.
Turn you inside out ah.

A #Capricorn female doesn't need your expensive gifts, just small gestures of your love will make our heart melt.
The way to my heart is...*drumrolls*

#Capricorns are cautious about committing to someone but when we do it's forever.
After all that waiting, analyzing, scrutinizing, overthinking, it would be a waste kan..

#Capricorns love simplicity.
My friend once asked what I wanted for my birthday. I told her books. She didn't believe me.

#Capricorn doesn't like putting our problems on other, & instead we tend to suffer in silence. 
Tralalala

#Capricorn may be very serious & shy one moment but equally as funny & outgoing at another.
Masters of Moodswings Inc.

#Capricorn believes everything has to be earned & that nothing is free.
Ya what, even hospitals charge you for oxygen.

There is never a dull moment when a #Capricorn is in a playful mood.
Poor boyf :P

#Capricorn likes to work quietly & effectively without creating too much bother or attention to ourselves.
My work will speak for itself, if successful. 

#Capricorns are best at setting and achieving long term goals rather than short ones.
What's next what's next what's next???

#Capricorns are the masters of the "silent treatment".
Die, you.

#Capricorn doesn't need recognition from others, self gratification is all we need.
Inner happiness.

Outwardly #Capricorn is not the approachable type, only the brave will be able to break down our walls. 
Dare youuuuuu?

#Capricorn loves intellect & heart to heart connections.
I love banter; you never know what you may end up with.

#Capricorns are mentally strong & can handle tough situations like a pro.
Humph. It's all the overthinking. 

Let this love begin, this tangled up emotion

Da da dah dah da~

Almost a year ago, still works the same, I hope it doesn't change :)

Cover Girl

I don't want to face any kind of beautiful separations
Someday we will grow apart, we won't see each other again
It's too short of a love journey to say this
Passing over the countless doorways that say "love is pain" in the open streets
Going by myself is not the solution
The awkwardly held hand is you

You are so pretty- you really shine
Each moment, you are my cover girl
You smile whenever you see me, even when you're mad, you smile
How can I say I don't like you?

I only need one, I only need one
You know it, it's obvious
Completely trust me, just trust me
Then I am yours, for always

Pretend that I never been sick
Pretend that I don't regret after I love
There's no need to be hurt by thinking
Just you and me- just us two is enough
Is your head still calculating?
Are you still confused on what the answer is?
It's simple- I can never let you go
The answer is that we can't go on if it's not us together

If you let your eyes wander, you know what will happen
If you have other feelings, you know what will happen
Then I don't know what I will do either
As much as you love, as much as you receive love
The scars are bigger as well

This is it- it's not that hard
If our hearts for each other are beating
If I call your name with my voice, it starts

You are my angel, my only cover girl
(My cover girl, I will have you)
I shout louder, you are mine (I can be loud)
My burning heart has focused on you
My eyes will only hold you (in my heart, there's only you)

I only need one, I only need one
You know it, it's obvious
Completely trust me, just trust me
Then I am yours, for always

*click*

I clicked to see what Blogger's new interface would be like. Hoho... Very clean, very neat, very white and dare I say, futuristic.

Am I allowed to throw some colour to my dashboard? It's so clean...it's not..right :P Then again I like the expanded writing area. No more being confined to that small box (I know it's resizable, but hey! Here's a great white space to scribble on. Isn't that more tempting?).

Still in the midst of finding another job so I can escape from my current job. He puts it as "desperate" to exit from Bz. I put it as "desperate to not work inhumane hours again". And it's just not inhumane hours, it's inhumane hours alone. Probably 6-7 days a week, 12 hours a day. Manning that small booth being paid on an hourly basis which is barely enough to cover the cost of a meal. Is that worth my time? No, not really.

Whenever I go ranting on this subject, he goes quiet. Either preferring not to argue or he's exhausted on countering that one time I temporarily quit because "senior" part-time employees get more. My ass. Ooh that still gets me riled up. All the more reason I should go, eh? :P

Most businesses pay peanuts for simple jobs because the mindset is "it's a simple task, so anyone can do it". Sigh yes, anyone can do it. But it hurts most when you're doing that for a living. There's a growing gap between living and surviving. How far can RM50 take you nowadays? One week if I'm lucky.

No, after a year and a half of uni, I'm quite tired of doing stuff on my own. It is a good thing being independent and able to execute whatever you lay your hands on, but unless I'm able to clone myself, I don't want to do so much of it anymore. I raised the white flag for my IFTP paperwork and rescue came. Ah...sometimes it's just so nice to have someone to lean on..

I think they have a name for that, "refusing help" might be it. But no ah...I don't refuse help, I only ask when necessary. Hehehe. Okay I went off on a tangent.

I want to work somewhere surrounded by people, half of them aren't customers. Someone to flag down to help if needed. Having someone to chat with wouldn't be so bad either. Maybe I'll go back into F&B. Sure, the pay's low (compared to retail) but at least there's shifts and you can't man the entire thing alone. That, is a huge difference. And I think that difference would make a happier me. Looking back, that was probably one of the reasons I loved working at BR :)

Hunt, hunt ;)

Ohyahor...

I did not officially announced that the semester has ended (have been on holiday since 10.01am on 14th November hehe). So!

• CWFM Opinion Piece (20%) - 25th August 2011
• PR2 Media Writing (20%) - 26th August 2011
• Raya Break (29th Aug - 4 Sept)
• IFTP Script and TV Production (15%) - 9th September 2011
• Media Law Question Solving (35%) - 26th September 2011
• CWFM Obituary/Profile (30%) - 26 September 2011
• IFTP Flash Animatic (35%) - 7th October 2011
• PR2 Report (35%) - 14th October 2011
• Media Law Presentations (15%) - 17th October 2011
• Deepavali Break (24th Oct - 30th Oct)
• CWFM Feature Story (50%) - 7th November 2011
• IFTP Final Video Production (50%) - 11th November 2011
• PR2 Portfolio (45%) - 11th November 2011
• Media Law Exam (50%) - 14th November 2011

*screampullhairyellscreamsomemoreshoutyellfallonkneesinhale* 

Yah, I'm done with Public Relations 2, Intro to Film and TV Production, Media Law and Creative Writing. Lalalala :D I think I'm almost back to normal hehe, enough sleep and all. AND to celebrate (and cuz I'm feeling the Christmas-y spirit after visiting malls) here's my tribute to Christmas weeeeeee. 

I laikes! 

During and After Semester face

The next person who says an assignment-based course is easier compared to the usual course with final exams is going to get stabbed. I see the same face everyday in the mirror but it's evident to some people. I am still very tired...how long to recover I'm not sure.

Only human

Finally done with all the filming, just ended Eunice's one today. For hers, she trusted me to ensure that her shots were good, and I tried I did. Though sometimes I forgot to lock the exposure. I was obsessed with getting the focus right.

When given that trust, you would want to give your best, wouldn't you?

So imagine my shock and horror upon viewing back my own videos to find that most of my videos were blur/out of focus. Was quite upset considering Adam insisted on handling the camera and I trusted him to do his best.

The bitter part of me wanted to heap the blame on him entirely; to point fingers just to blame someone.

But..

I knew he could not be responsible entirely, as the lighting conditions were not excellent and the small screen made it hard to be certain. Still, I was pretty miffed about the whole focus thing.

Sigh...

To shoot outdoors was challenging, given that nature's lighting cannot be controlled. And...to think that gathering my cast was difficult enough, to the point of hair-pulling.

Over dinner I glumly swallowed, still wanting to blame but allowing myself to stew instead. Would it had been better if I insisted on viewing every shot? Would handling the camera on my own made the shots clearer?

It sucked.

Then I remembered that customer I met during work that told me that as humans were imperfect, no matter what the circumstances. Perfect pieces of kitchenware don't give off that same feel. That did make me feel marginally better. In the beginning I did not take control of the camera and there were blurry shots, but towards the middle and ending I took control, the focus was better.

Only human. And since it was my first time with the DSLR, some mistakes were bound to be done. I sigh, but putting my glum feelings aside, I searched for tips on sharpening videos. One said those fancy HD videos you view on TVs in stores are extensively edited. No doubt they were shot with much care.

However...I did agree with the point that said what was shown appears to be artificial; nothing looks like that in real life. Too sharp, colours to bright and just...unbelievable.

Which is exactly what is was.

So after dinner I look through my shots again. I realised Taylors does really have a nice background for shooting and the slight out of focus gave the videos a sort-of dreamy feel. Much more realistic..than razor sharp images.

It's just an assignment, after all. Though I did want clear videos to edit and submit. But, ah well. Make do with  what I have.

I don't have perfect videos. I can't make serious videos and the spontaneity of my storyline shows that. So...

I'll just swallow it for tonight and cut them up tomorrow. The dreamy effect might just work to my advantage. It just wasn't what I hoped it would be. Heh, considering all the trouble this assignment caused and it worth 50%, do what I gotta do.

Move on and get on with it.
Just hope BB7 goes back online tonight. I want to submit my essay and sleep tonight.
La dee dum dum.
200 words to go plus 200 words for reflection.
Hey, ho.