Piece by piece

I really don't know what to say; except that everyone leaves eventually. Your sudden departure left me kinda floating. I'm not sure where to go now. Decisions, are now all my own.

I used to think I could adapt. I accepted the offer of Studio and threw myself into the challenge. Still climbing that steep learning curve. I thrived on it, but why. does. this. leave. me. so. helpless? Did it come too fast? Did I just patch up wounds without letting them heal completely? Do I need closure?

Ugh. Just so, so tired of life sometimes.

Would it be wrong for me to raise expectations for summer? That I am hoping for a repeat of last year or even better? At this rate, I think I would be bitterly disappointed. Things have changed, so much. You feel like a stranger now; I'm not sure what to say to you anymore.

I took a chance... I don't think spontaneity works that well for me. I wanted and didn't want it at the same time. Curiousity killed the cat; I'm left here. To think. Would I have changed it if I had the chance? Still undecided. It's a pro-con thing, still cannot forgive. That's what I get when I break the ultimate promise to myself. Yet, humans are curious. Experiment and learn, if you will.

I cannot decide.

Each mistake is a lesson; the past few have been ingrained deeply. I do not regret making them, yet there's a sour tinge to it.

Sigh.

I am now reluctant to get attached. They all leave, eventually. So much left unsaid. But there's you. You hit me in ways I didn't expect. I love an intriguing mind. A friend, that's all you ever were. But those conversations, I enjoyed them. I felt that you understood. I miss talking to you. I wonder if you miss me too...

Maybe I am starting to crack on the surface. Time to patch up again; this time from the inside. Brush up that shine, bring that carefree smile back.

Time. I need time again. I shouldn't raise expectations for summer, but I can't help it. I'm not sure if there's still a point of printing shirts, that dream shattered awhile back. Not sure if I still believe in it even if I do wear it, after all the wars.

Forgive, forgive yourself and move on. It depends on your own state of mind, up to you to define what's right. Stuck between social norms and my own expectations...

Sleep, bring peace to this mind which is running wild.

Monday Madness

Yinyee says:
sleepy

anna says:
go to sleep

Yinyee says:
cannot

anna says:
can

Yinyee says:
how?

anna says:
open eyes and sleep

Yinyee says:
"alex, your PA is a terrible influence"

anna says:
tsk tsk

Yinyee says:
:D
terrible influences of the best kind

anna says:
you la terrible influence
eh http://twitpic.com/1g1u7e

Yinyee says:
what did i do :(
omy so cuteeeeee


Seriously, look at the twitpic :D

I'm sitting down here but hey you can't see me

Stop pushing yourself so hard, can?

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I'm sitting down here but hey you can't see me
Kinda invisible you don't sense my stay
Not really hiding not like a shadow
Just thought I would join you for one day...

Iyaz - Solo

Some Monday it was.

Got to know Dreamweaver, was about to go out for lunch when was asked to sit in for the Calvary meeting. Fulamak. They do not want a simple new website. Phew. Everything you could possibly cram into a website. Iz going to be massive :O

The new intern is called Su Yen :D The moment Sean came in and plonked her stuff on the desk, Mike started shooting her lol. He is getting no chicken skin xD They ate KFC for lunch again. Urgh.

Lunch with Chun Tat and Jack at Wong Kok in SS2. Both so freeee :) This time warned Jack to just order for himself haha. Sort of worked. Still ended up with some leftovers. Upside, I got me milk tea :) Been wanting it for sometime; OTWC's one is pricey for a small cup.

Back to the office, work timeeeeeeeee. Assigned to work with Su Yen to come up with a concept for wireframes with Ser Young. Bombarded with links and briefs to read up and wireframe programs to try out. Couldn't start on that yet; had to finish masking the PE pics for Lianne. Took me a good frustrating 2 hours to sort out =/ Have to work on mouse and brush control.

Studio's work is challenging and hair-pulling. It's a hate and love thing since if I can't go home til it's done. I love it cuz it keeps me busy and lets me discover plenty on my own. Needless to say, I came home rather drained and scrapped my initial plan to go for a run. Sigh. Went for a bike ride, not that hyped up for a ride either.

Gahh I sound like such a depressed soul. But was feeling rather shaky =/ overdoing it? I would practice masking tonight, but seeing as my mouse is malfunctioning I guess not. Might end up throwing it across the room.

Breathe.

Despite it all, today I got to know Dreamweaver and masking :) No telling what's coming tomorrow, but when I get in I better start reading up the links and client brief. Wireframes to tackle tomorrow....

Sounds like building blocks of news and heat bending all over again.

Hahahahaha.

Confessions of the Mad and Terrifically Insane

Or, I could name this post "Sick". Wouldn't be as interesting, would it?

So yes, I am Mad and Terrifically Insane. A little tired too. Hello, I am the Mad, Tired and Terrifically Insane, and have been for a week now. Rawr.

Is there a point to this? I think so.

My tale begins with one too many nights out in a row. Wednesday, Thursday then Friday. Heat overload too. Tonsils, feverish during work, horrible flu, stuffed nose and cough. In that order. Goway stuffy dose. I 'ate you :( After 3 days of tahan-ing, I finally took the day off on Thursday. Bless room temperature air!

Cough cough. Week 2 in the Studio begins tomorrow. Week 1 consisted of being sick, learning basic tools of Illustrator (so much that Photoshop feels weird to use now :P) and tutorials. Tomorrow, Studio will have a new intern :D If what Anna says is true, then I remain the only 9-series person in the office.

Ramble ramble. Sleeping late and waking up early yesterday didn't help. Meh. Rainy mornings *clings to headboard in refusal to wake up* Ching Ming in KL with family. One good thing that it was rainy was the smoke didn't affect my throat as much. Breakfast at McD's, then to Tesco Extra for some shopping. Reached home early afternoon, showered. For all the hate of hairdryers, I didn't get to nap in the afternoon.

When I finally did, had to play chauffeur. Roar roar roar. Night time, mom wanted to go to Tesco again, since she didn't get all she wanted earlier. Lol. Tagged along, went for 9.30pm noodles after. Rushed home, Boon Yen was already waiting outside my house. Leaped into the car.

"Sorry sorry sorry!!"

Vroooom to Tbun cuz I had itchy fingers. L4D2 woooooo! :D As always, we warmed up by logging into Facebook first -.-'' Played Hard Rain and Parish. Somehow managed to get through the 2 maps with not much problem. To help others escape, I died in both the last two maps. Sigh ._. So closeeee.

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This was last week, but

 I have gots the powah!

Standby for my dear Adidas which is reaching the end of its lifespan

I think after getting this pair, I have somehow become infatuated with red and pink *eyebrow twitch* Like, where-have-these-two-colours-been-my entire-life kinda thing.

Roar. 

That led me to a frenzy to contemplate getting future gadgets in said pink and red...


Signing off,
The Mad, Tired and Terrifically Insane.
(Yinyee is on a vacation)

This is my perfect echo

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Why do I feel this magnetic pull I have towards you?

How strange that it won't go away.

Where'd You Go by Fort Minor just popped up on my playlist. Aaaaah, how appropriate.

Boon Yen's 21st

Yeaaaaa, I was supposed to write about this 2 months ago :P Guess work caught up. 

That afternooon, Jack and Chun Tat came by Centrepoint to have lunch with me. We warned Jack to order his own portion, afraid after the time we ate at Tokyo G and Pizza Hut. Scaree.The duo promised to be back at 6pm to pick me up then Khai Sim and the birthday boy up for dinner :D

Dinner was at Yuen's Steamboat, which was rather potong cuz the food's merely passable. But as always, the company made it fun :) 

Birthday boy!

Yuen's. While it was still empty

While waiting for the food to cook, we...

..take pictures...

..goof around...

...and laugh it off :)

KS

CT taking picture of something

Camwhore in car! CT kept complaining about the flash hahaha

After dinner we headed for Sunway Pyramid, where we 

had tickets for Clash of the Titans.

The boys in White. Strangely, with black stripes in ascending order :P

BY felt like hunting that night 

*puts on CT's jacket, pulls hood over head*

"Rrrrrr....RAAAAA."

You'll know when we've played too much L4D2 :P 

We start bringing it to real life

Forgiveness is crucial. Awwww so cute

Our Muffinman

Finally, finally we were able to enter. I didn't know what to expect for Clash of the Titans; I quite liked it. But others said it was so-so. Hmm. Expectations :D Earlier on we bought a present for BY, so we headed back to my place for the closing celebration and the opening of the gift. LOL.

Jack trying to explain the ways of lifting BY hahaha. Major fail.

And then boys being boys...

"Yinyee quick! Take picture!!"

Blindfolding him before letting him open it :P 

He was so incredibly terrified that Jack was going to kiss him. Hahaha.

Opening present "WTH did they give me?"

"WTF???"

We had plenty, plenty of laughs.

Sexy 21st, kan? ;)

Fallen fairy using Facebook

;)

More pictures here.